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February

Me, sitting in wheelchair on left, many more people filing in to sit on the sides and back of the auditorium.

February

On Sunday afternoons at Kendal, we usually have a concert in the auditorium. This one was supposed be performed by two Oberlin Conservatory students playing a program of Shostakovich and Prokofiev. It was canceled as that was the day we had our share of the Big Snowstorm. We had a foot of snow that was just tapering off by 4:00, the usual time we  begin listening to sublime musical offerings.

Instead, given the prediction, Ellie and her husband, new-last-year-residents, decided the night before to call a pop-up peace and justice vigil to be held in the predictably empty auditorium at that time. Amazingly, as some folks would choose to remain comfortably in their homes to watch it on our campus wide TV, we gathered about 75 people around our Peace Pole, newly purchased due to the efforts of a committee spearheaded by Ellie and her husband Carlton. (Ordered from a company that makes them, ours has “May peace prevail on earth” in 8 different languages including Mohawk and in braille.) This spontaneous gathering was truly representative of our diverse community, as we shared voices of our fears, anger, hopelessness, and the many opportunities for active engagement locally, and, above all, hope. We spoke, listened, and sang together for peace and justice.

I was inspired to write a poem for the occasion and was moved to write another one the day after and a final one the day after that.

ICE TRYPTIC :  (three poems for Peace, by Judi Bachrach)

I:

Sitting for Peace in the Snowstorm            1/25/2026

Today, we have snow, you have ice.

We have desert heat, you have monsoons.

We share the same tapestry of sky

shaping the invisible atmosphere

rising miles above our heads

into dark universal space.






We have tragedy, you have joy.





We have violence, you sit for peace.





We have lost a parent; you birthed a child.





Emotions swim in the same ocean,





one drop indistinguishable from the other.





At our most basic,





we are always both a particle and a wave.










What is empty, what is full?





What is real, what is true?





What exists beyond my senses?





Embodying peace subsumes thought.





Embodying peace subsumes thought.





In the atmospheric ocean of peace,





Oneness is universal. I would dwell there.





II:





Embodied Peace   1/26/26





Embodied peace will tell you where to go and what to sign,





who to call, what to say, and when to remain silent.





Peace will tell you when to put your body on the line





and when to retreat because you still have more to do here.





Peace is loud or silent,





isolating and a magnet for gathering





like-minded souls to move the power of ignorance.





Peace erupts like a volcano,





lava streams covering everything





on the way to creating new ground.





Peace radiates the glow of love and justice





weighing exactly as much as that which is needed





to rebalance the scale.





Embodying peace is the work we do





to listen and to take right action.





III:





For the Love of Finches     1/27/26





Today it’s not the inbreath





of horror and anger





responding to wanton destruction





of life and sanity.





It’s the slow outbreath





of resolve to live in love.





The first awakening from sleep





into the world of an eldering body





carries miraculous awareness





of living another day,





another opportunity for joy.





Not in spite of sorrow,





but because I cannot en-joy one





without the other.





Gratitude for seeming opposites





finds a nesting home in my heart





where shivering finches





fluff their feathers sharing our bitter cold.





We feed them and their lives nourish ours in return.





That is how love works.





In gratitude and joy, I offer my life





to the Oneness of love,





one small seed at a time.

	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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January: And a New Year
					


	

	

	

		






photo of Buttonbush Pond in Winter by author





We all could make a list of what we would like to have happen in the new year. In our personal lives, we will wish for the health and well-being of ourselves, our families, and our friends. That may mean that we’d like our current life challenges to be resolved in a benign manner, that we will have the strength and wisdom to handle further unforeseen disruptions, and that we may continue to grow and mature in meaningful ways.





The list of what we would like for our country and the world might be roughly the same with some very pointed specifics. There are major changes that we want to see so that we can live our personal lives in safety, free from the harm of an unstable external world.





Considering a new year for both the personal and the external, we are faced with the reality that the two are intimately intertwined. What happens out there, reverberates in here. And, how we hold our inner perceptions, greatly affects our perceptions of what occurs in the world around us. We must acknowledge that so much of our lives is out of our control. This has always been so, but perhaps it is now an inescapable reality to see how fast our assumptions and expectations were upended in the space of this one year, 2025.





To me, the only path to well-being in the face of crises, is to make space inside of yourself to align with what reinforces your capacity to experience that sense of rightness. Elizabeth Lesser used the phrase, “everyday saint” in her book, Broken Open. We do not have to become the Dalai Lama, or spiritual masters- we just need to affirm our best selves in the lives that we live every day.





That moment of reflection before we react in anger, the pause to listen carefully to the person right in front of us even if you’ve heard the same litany of complaints many times before, offering to do an errand for someone else even when you’re tired- these are simple, extremely difficult acts to accomplish. Songya Rinpoche wrote (I am paraphrasing), “Miraculous powers (siddhis) like walking on water are all very well- but not reacting in anger? – now that is a miracle.”





The year that lies ahead looks to be dangerous sailing for so many of us humans. Realistically, it will take a long time for our world turn to back towards compassion and sanity. I feel anger, despair, and sorrow whenever I listen to the news. But I do not linger in those normal responses. I cannot afford to contribute to darkness but will work to bring myself into gratitude for the light that still exists. There are millions of others everywhere who also hold the light, but who are not in the headlines. They are hardworking everyday saints just like you and me.





I wish everyone a Happy New Year.

	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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December
					


	

	

	

		






My holiday shelf





It is cold and colder around here in Northeast Ohio, with snow and freezing rain-must be December. On Thanksgiving and the day after at my daughter’s home not far from Lake Erie, there was plenty of snow for the first snowman of the year. My grandsons were thrilled. I don’t drive anymore, so after my son-in-law drove me home away from the white stuff that day, when it snows again where I live, I am free to admire its beauty.





There is the anticipation of continuing holidays in the air. For me, there is a touch of nostalgia from my own childhood to that of our family when my daughters were young. Above, is a photo of my holiday shelf, minus the tiny menorah soon to join the lights. We acknowledge the cosmic approach of the solstice, and we have lighted candles against the dark since ancient times. May we all invest in the hope that the New Year will start bringing us closer to returning light to the darkness of our world. There is no timeline on achieving this, unfortunately. But I cannot afford despair and wish to contribute lightness within my own small circle of family, friends, and neighbors.





I wrote this poem in February of 2025, already foreshadowing the contrast of the beauty of the world outside my window to the ugliness of what was to come.





Predictably Unpredictable Weather   2/16/25





Today the snow fell as temperatures dropped





without yesterday’s warm permission.





It is pretty.





It is soft.





It is quiet.





It draws birds back to my feeder.





Bluebirds return to fallen seeds below.





Everywhere the ground reflects light dimmed





by clouds releasing their crystalline burdens





onto black branches underlining every snow-capped twig.





Reading signs to reveal the future is





a predictable habit, though





hard to break.





Hearts and dreams are so unpredictably broken.










Hawk landing on my bird feeder

	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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November
					


	

	

	

		






solar lighting in the Labyrinth garden by author





We are another month closer to the new year which may have a sliver more positive anticipation after the recent elections. “Count your blessings,” is surely an overused and saccharine phrase these days. But if you are reading these words, it is likely that you are fed, warm and dry, and are using your computer in relative comfort. I daily do give thanks for these things that I do not take for granted.





Sure, living in a retirement home that has been undergoing major kitchen renovations of our former 30-year-old equipment and poor set up, now gives rise to food complaints as we endure months of food prepared in 5 huge FEMA style trailers that we have rented for the duration. Lack of dishwashers has meant eating from paper plates, buffet style serving, and endless repetitive menus due to the poor storage and freezer space available.





The entire restoration project is supposed to culminate in a grand Thanksgiving Day opening meal- but we shall see. We are still so fortunate. Most of us buffer our complaints with that understanding and we are very involved in supporting local food banks and services to support those in our area that continue to struggle as our national/state support systems continue to decline. It is horrifying that this occurs in America even as millions all over the world are starving who are also affected by the brutal decisions of our supposedly wealthy country.





Tragedies strike close to home with friends whose daughters and sons have lost their government jobs, their grants, their SNAP benefits, and their livelihoods. We are all affected by their lives as fellow human beings. Counting your blessings is one way to focus on the good and the hopeful during the avalanche of desperate news. It is only a moment of your time and has repeatedly been said by wiser and heartful beings, moments are all we really have. Make each one count as best you can on the positive side of the equation. As I titled this blog long ago, we are: shining light into dark places.

	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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October
					


	

	

	

		






photo by author





No sooner did I wax poetic about the crisp fall weather last month than the afternoon temperatures rose into the 80’s every day. We are back in drought territory. It is a lovely time to be a walking, appreciative human being and a stressful time to be a tree. Trees are shedding early with little vibrant color so far. I am enjoying the last slowly vine ripening tomatoes that were also given a final boost. As I sit by the shrinking ponds and the sinking lily pads, I look and hear and smell fall progressing.

Gone to seed





Pods and pinecones





Berries and burrs





Nuts and tufts of wispy





fluff – the urgency of spring





no less the urgency of fall





The laze of summer





The slumber of winter





Love itself has no season





and at the end





all I hope to leave behind.





This fall seems almost unendurably poignant as so many of our valued beliefs and systems have been prematurely forced to go to seed. Living as I do in a continuing care retirement home, dear friends and neighbors are passing in their time. These personal losses on top of global decimation are a lot for my witnessing heart to bear. I am grateful for those in my community both here and outside of Kendal that share their strength of heart with me. Going it alone is not an option.





Yom Kippur was honored with a lovely service enhanced by two Oberlin Conservatory students playing a heart-rending version of the Kol Nidre. I shed tears to share the burden of being human for so many atrocities that we commit as a species. To find atonement- or I as I see it, at-one-ment with the whole of my being, means asking for mercy and forgiveness every step of my path and not just once a year. We each have a role to play in standing for truth, compassion, and justice.





In Catholicism, prayers may be offered many specific times of the day, as in Islam. Compline is the last one before retiring.





Compline Service at Island Pond





Compline service begins.





Insects chirr the plainsong of call and response.





Leaves whisper prayers around the pond.





Planted among the browning lily pads





black and white geese bow their heads





like flowering nuns.





Incense of fall nostalgia permeates the air.










Descending behind the trees





the great orb drops a chilly shroud of evening.





Bless and preserve us, Amen.





I head home and turn on the lights.





I send this taste of peace





to those who have no safe place to sleep tonight





and to those who wake up hoping





to survive another day of war.






	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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September
					


	

	

	

		






cloud puzzle by author





On Turning Seventy-four





Clouds assemble and pull apart,





puzzle pieces against a sharp blue sky.





Clattering leaves shed yellow ones,





introducing this year’s Leaf Ballet.





September weather in August.





Cicadas and crickets are slowing down.





Only yesterday they strummed the air.





September babies like me relish





dew drenched mornings, jackets in the shade,





afternoon sunny spots breaking through.





This will be a good year to stretch my heart





wider and wider with sadder and sadder news.





Love, I believe, has no beginning and no end,





despite human appearances to the contrary.





The fall weather in NE Ohio began a couple of weeks ago, much to my delight. It is a treasure of deep blue sky (a poet friend wrote of “Dresden blue”) with interwoven sun and shade as the clouds drift and stretch like we do at the end of summer. I do not pay much attention to my birthdays as they inevitably pile up but it is a time to see visiting relatives which is a treat I look forward to.





The state of country and world affairs seem to keep pushing us towards a crisis, and as my chiropractor suggested today, perhaps it could be “a small catastrophe”. May it be enough to make real changes, yet not enough to totally derail human infrastructures. It will not be easy to weather nor to repair, whatever forms it will take. 





Our personal dramas unfold against the polarizing tensions and the world keeps turning and our lives go on. My five and a half-year-old grandson started pubic school kindergarten and so far, he loves it. His younger brother continues on in his local small Montessori school and so they are getting in on the best ground floor of education that their community has to offer, even as the future of education is under reconstruction from AI to our national governmental deconstruction. The boys are a source of joy with which I am blessed. 





I wrote this poem after my Dutch friend, Johan Kos died. He was a principal dancer in our small dance company in the 1970’s and I will never forget the duet that he and my husband choreographed for themselves. To see very strong men move together with grace and power stays with me today.





Misericordia is from the Latin “misericors,” meaning “merciful,” –“misereri” (to pity) and “cor” (heart)- the act of extending one’s heart to another’s suffering.” 





Misericordia





The planet turns.





The sun appears to rise.





Branches bowed with rain touch the ground.





The day lies down before me.





Birds shimmer the dawn.





Yesterday, my friend of 50 years suddenly died.





Last night, more bombs were dropped and, I cried.





What losses we inflict. What pain we suffer.





The cat rolls over, asking for love.





The day is belly up and my fingers touch innocence and peace.





May we have mercy this day, mercy.

	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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August
					


	

	

	

		

Yesterday was my 55th wedding anniversary, the eighth one without Richard. I no longer anticipate sorrow or nostalgia on this day but remain open to whatever arises. Last week this poem came to me in remembrance of my newly widowed days.





Holding Hands- a True Story





I moved here as a widow where nobody knew who you were, who we were, or who we had been during even one of our almost fifty years together.





I began life all over as just me, by myself.





A year or so after you died, I lay in bed one night crying softly in a sudden lament,





“But I’ll never… get to hold your hand… again!”





The next day I sat on an observation deck overlooking a swampy pond. A sparkling blue dragonfly alighted on my hand. His multifaceted eyes took me in. His translucent wings rested quietly on his back.





We sat there, he and I, holding hands for a long time.





I have returned to that pond, Button Bush Pond, many times and never again has a swooping hungry dragonfly come near me. It was a lovely recollection, a healing gift from Nature’s bounty. We are all held every day by Gaia.





On the days predicted to be hot, I get outside as early as I can on my mobility scooter. Just before dawn, it is so quiet on this campus with hundreds of residents and staff. Even the noisy geese are inhabiting other ponds in the area. Only the croak of one resident duck couple and a few bullfrogs sounds me out as I roll by five of our other ponds. It has felt like the end of August already, with chilly dew-drenched mornings and hot swimming temperatures by afternoon. In the middle of last month, I saw my first monarch butterfly and heard the first evening cricket and buzzing night insects in the trees. The weather patterns have changed course as any times as our President’s erratic pronouncements.





As I keep reiterating here, I work to keep my heart open as a grounded witness to this rapidly evolving transformation of my country and the world.





I end with one of my predawn poems with my photo.










Venus in the Morning





Venus makes lovelight to the waning half moon





Tress silhouette against the rising glow





A breeze tickles whispering leaves





Wildflowers dance on the hill





One bird, ten birds sing the





miracle of dawn






	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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July
					


	

	

	

		






Author photo of neighboring pond aeration at dawn





The above fountain of light seems fitting for the burst of a watery display in lieu of fireworks for me this year. On July 4th I could hear the distant crumps of town fireworks and local backyard Pop! Pops!. The best sparkles in the nighttime sky for me were fireflies. There are only a few bobbing around my lawn compared to a magical field full of them from my childhood. But they sufficed to light my sky.





This year it was challenging for many of us to happily celebrate America as it is today and where it it is rapidly heading. Kendal has a master organizer who for 20 years has created an annual event in our auditorium recapping the history of the founding of our nation. This year he pointed to the many, many struggles, resistances, marches, and deadly rebellions, led by individuals and organizations to right the wrongs of our laws since the very beginning of this experiment in democracy. It was clear that the time is upon us to to rise up once again in peaceful, purposeful demonstration of our rights against this attempt to roll back the many gains that have been achieved in the past, ensuring a more just future.





It was a stirring and hopeful hour as residents participated in reading quotes from Harriet Tubman, suffragettes, gay rights activists, Martin Luther King, Gloria Steinhem, to president Obama and many more, speaking for the oppressed and underserved. I do have hope and refuse to feel helpless. We are ripples of light in a dark pond. 





 In 2013, Erica Chenowith came up with this political science statistic: If 3.5% of a population under authoritarian rule rises up, a regime change can be accomplished. In America that would amount to 12 million people. The No Kings marches included 6 million people. If everyone who marched found one more person to join in protests, write postcards, make phone calls and door to door contacts, the effect would be enough to turn the tide. And yes, even peaceful protests may result in loss of life, just as civil rights protestors, union organizers and others have selflessly lost their lives in the past. Time to do what you can where you can locally and trust that every one of us counts.





I include some poems to hold as July unfolds with ever more disturbing news. I write to keep me centered in these difficult times.





Interdependence Day- What You Desire                         7/4/25





Blessed with a huge landscape-





‘sea to shining sea’-





full of diverse resources to be gobbled up





by those with greater numbers,





more effective weapons





inflated entitlement, greed and power





as it has always been with our species,





enacts the willingness to obliterate anyone or anything





standing or living in their way





to claim and defend even





to the death, (of) the land itself,





thinking they prevent their own demise.





Here we are today.





An experiment in self-governance gone





awry with plenty of mistakes and course corrections,





some benefitting the few, some, the many





trying to rewind to benefit the few again





with so many more left behind than ever before,





imagining they will rule forever.





They won’t, of course.





Interdependence is reality.





No way around it if living, not possessing,





is what you desire.





 Birds of a *Molting Feather










Photo by author: *The word molting is based on the Latin mutare, meaning ‘to change’.





Goose feathers flip across the grass.





Do they remember when breezes





challenged or floated their winged progress





here, to this pond, this mate, these goslings?





Losing tails, showing blue ‘blood feathers’





the geese must wait a month to fly again.










In my lifetime, not everything I drop





will grow back, though





modern medicine does its best





to replace that which I am losing.





My lifelong mate will not return





and our goslings have found their own ponds





to live and raise their young.










I, too, have found a new flock and





we share with geese the air,





the ponds, the grounds we walk upon.





We birds of diverse feather,





remembering our wings,





choose to molt and stay together.











	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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June
					


	

	

	

		






cactus garden and surroundings by author





It has only occasionally felt like summer for a day or so before spring weather returns, wet and chilly. Flowers have taken their time, but are blooming, nonetheless. Lettuces overflowing from a friend’s garden have found their way into my salad bowl. Above is a picture of our magnificent cactus garden and surroundings that is a breathtaking glory every year.





Who knew that northeast Ohio would support such a display? But the biologist who planted and maintains this garden knows his cacti. We are blessed to have such diverse garden designed to bring health and calming nourishment to our Care Center where it is located. But this courtyard garden also draws the whole community of residents who live farther out in their cottages and apartments. Every year people ask- are they blooming yet? and scurry over to the garden for the brief glory of vibrant color with thorns that glisten in the sun.





June is my husband’s birthday month. He would have been 75 this year. That is still relatively young for this community. I don’t plan on feeling sorrow or dwelling in the past when his birth and death dates arrive, but inevitably I am triggered by a memory from one source or another. I honor the tinge of sorrow or loneliness that arises. It is a doorway to acknowledging the love and life we shared for almost 50 years. I am aware of how fulfilling our relationship was for both of us in terms of healing our own childhood wounds and the fact that we understood from the very beginning that we were also spiritual partners.





Having worked with many folks as a therapist and spiritual counselor, I understand how challenging and infrequent that kind of relationship can be. I am deeply fortunate in feeling that Richard and I did everything we needed to do together in our lifetime. That leaves a lot of grateful love behind. He and I were not saints! Far from it, but we learned together as we went along with as many challenges as all young people face while we matured since the beginning of our teenaged partnership. What do teenagers know about loving themselves or another person? Not much- and the growing pains were evident in propelling us towards deeper understanding of our own issues and the longing to pursue a Greater Love we both knew was possible.





The fact that we now have two grandsons Richard will not meet is a fact that is buffered by seeing them grow and change with a little bit of their ancestors shining through their own young selves. Perhaps it is a projection, but certain looks and behaviors cannot help but ring a bell of familiarity. They are a joy and lend a welcome reminder that we are all a product of our ancestors reaching back into unfathomable histories. I give thanks for those unknown predecessors. Whatever this turbulent world will be like when our grandsons are adults, I know that they will have had deep loving support to fulfill their own contributions, whatever they may be.





Richard would be so proud of them, and our family celebrates his memory by eating ice cream. It was his favorite dessert throughout his life. Friends, former clients, and family members fondly recall that we served different ice creams for 300 people at his memorial. Spoons up, everyone!

	



	



			
				



	
		

			

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March through April
					


	

	

	

		






photo by author





My friend Len was concerned about me because I hadn’t written on my blog since February. What? I didn’t? Nope, I had to look for myself. Actually, there is nothing to be concerned about.  I stopped writing on another website about that time as did a lot of other writers whose work I had appreciated there. The algorithms they were now using meant that a lot of us were no longer getting viewed or commented on. Something had changed and many switched to another site altogether. I decided I have enough writing on my plate just for Kendal- sometimes people are asking me if I would write something for their occasion and with my own projects, I am kept as busy as I need to be. Looking back, I see I just didn’t feel ready to get back online for a while.





That said, here I am, catching up from March to the end of May with a few poems.





The Plot at the End of March





Three weeks ago, the pond was covered in melting ice.





Today, bright green duckweed mats are melding.





Mated Canadian geese part them effortlessly





as they swim to the far end of the pond.





Their usual nesting spot is hidden beyond





a small forest of last year’s dried canes.





Some lie broken on the water creating a raft





for a sunbathing palm-sized turtle.





Around the perimeter of the pond





tiny frogs trill croaks of love and territory.





Tree frogs continuously chuckle soprano gulp





up in the balcony above my head.















I see hoof prints in the mud along the road.





A deer was here.





Pussy willows are purring,





early daffodils are almost blooming





and away from the frogs, more and more





distinct birdsong can be heard.





The field is full of winter-dead wildflowers.





Seeds are long gone but tasty insects are stirring.





I can almost hear new stems stretching beneath the ground.










Even in my room, I saw the first tiny ant





emerging from the baseboard where the plumbing chase





is a yearly highway for ants in my building,





reminding me that spring stirs everything





outside and inside of me and my home on this plot of earth.





None of us can ignore what is happening in our country and the world. I have written many poems to try and integrate the dismay we are all feeling. When I first saw how much money had initially fled my investments this poem arose.





Unlike Flocks of Starlings 4/8/25





Unlike a flock of black starlings flowing as one





graceful murmuration in the sky,





words and numbers etched in black ink





are flying away in frenzied chaos.















Disruptive change is healthy





for organisms creating new growth.





Organic destruction of dead matter is embedded





with intelligent patterns of renewal. 















The ripple effects of panicked incoherence





destroyed what once was.





We long to know that our flock





will land in safety again.















This universe is based on expansion and contraction,





always reverting to balance,





when healthy order inevitably returns.





May our flock lift wings together with that surety.





Which brings us to April. I wrote this back in 2007 when a Shad (other names are Serviceberry and Juneberry) tree was blooming right outside my bedroom window when I spent many hours in bed from my MS exhaustion. There is an Ohio version of this tree right outside my window ripening into berries as I write.





The Shad Tree, ‘07





Every spring the Queen of Lace





holds court outside my window.





The royal decree is trilled aloud





by avian courtiers perched in her graceful branches.





“Build nests in field and forest and





by June shall our white blossoms become red berries,





a feast for you and your kin.”





Unlatching my window





I receive the royal summons





on the first warm sunny day.





She nods to me in the breeze.





I curtsy deeply





inhaling all that grows, crawls, flies,





and swims upon her earth.





This year of recovery





I match her abundance.





With a trilling cry of my own





she and I are become





this season of rebirth.





I will build a nest in her arms and learn to sing.





In fact, I am no longer able to sing my own songs that I have written since coming to Kendal. I have lost the ability to keep in pitch. I have made friends with a very talented musician, writer, pianist, singer, engineer in Oberlin- who kindly has transcribed 10 of my songs that I want to use as an album to give to Kendal marketing to use as they wish. I am distributing this collection of songs to musicians and singers, both residents and staff, who will record them with another resident who is also a sound engineer and singer himself. This project has also kept me very busy and by the end of the fall, I hope it will all be done and available to stream online somehow from Kendal’s website. The logistics I leave up to those who know what they are doing. I am very happy to know these songs won’t languish in my head but can be appreciated by others.





Now onwards to June, which is just around the corner…